renaissance
I think I’ll be using this tumblog more often. I just read all 10 pages of Mark’s and it reminded me how helpful writing things out used to be for me. Alright cool, it’s established then.
Tonight I went with Nikole to Windham to see Defeater, Cruel Hand, and my friends in She Has Fallen play. The show was supposed to be at the SMCC campus in Portland but I guess there were some security issues (seriously?) with that so it got moved. The venue, the Windham VFW, is practically impossible to find. The road isn’t in google maps because it’s actually a dirt road behind the Hannaford, and only accessible through the parking lot. I only made it with Clint’s help, and I was convinced that nobody was going to show up, but i was floored to see at least 30 cars in the parking lot of the hall. Whole bunch of maine kids tonight for a show with only one non-maine band, I should have known. I actually had a really really really good time. I got to see some friends but be around a bunch of people I don’t know too, so that was fun. I got to dance a bit, and shoot in really easy lighting, so the photos look good too. I’m still kinda pumped which is a problem considering i should be asleep, but whatever. I like how many really nice people I know.
Yeah, that was the majority of my day today. Yesterday I spent the day with Taylor and the evening with her and Mark. We drove around Eliot and left notes in people’s mailboxes telling them they had nice Christmas lights. The whole day was a lot of fun. After we dropped Mark off at his car Taylor and I went back to her dad’s house and found ourselves joining a pokemon facebook storm. Neal Dwelly is way too good at this shit. Long story short my profile picture is a Magnemite and all my status’ are about the plight of living as a magnet. Fun stuff.
I opened this by referencing reading Mark’s entire tumblr history. I’m following mark now but not on this account so I doubt he knows about it, thus I’ll take the opportunity to delve into this without sounding insincere. I really think Mark Noble is one of the nicest kids, and I wish he knew how alike we are in certain ways. Reading his tumblr made me remember the livejournal i used to keep my senior year. It was the mass of hyper-depressive rambling that I kept public but didn’t tell anyone about. I had a whole lot of shit going on that year and it gave me an outlet for it without the awkwardness that comes from telling close friends about your problems. I miss that sometimes, I haven’t used the livejournal in ages and it’s not a secret anymore, everything is just hidden. I guess the biggest difference is that I’m not massively depressed anymore. I have my moments, but I have one person in my life that makes me feel so worthwhile all the time and I just want Mark to have the same. He seriously deserves this happiness so much more than I do and I just HATE when he gets shit on by girls or when things just don’t work out perfectly for him. I don’t really feel this strongly about the relationships of my other friends for some reason, and I’m not really sure why. I just want good things to happen for Mark.
OK that’s all for now. I’m sleeping on Nikole’s couch tonight ‘cause I’m going to be around town tomorrow anyway and that’s 64 miles and $5 in tolls saved.
Goodnight and go see Defeater and Cruel Hand and She Has Fallen and everyone.
